a mother

originally published May 8, 2011 at http://kacinpoint.com

In the past ten days I’ve had the privilege of witnessing just how many variations there are in the definition of a mother.  Today, in America, we celebrate Mother’s Day.  I am not with my children today and this is the fifth that I have celebrated since I lost my own Mom.  And somehow, it has not been a sad day.  It has just been a day of alternate perspective.  I have loved on children who have never known the love of a mother in the past week.  I have spoken with parents who broke the chains of social norms and kept their children with special needs when the society around them encouraged institutionalization.  I have grown to love a woman who never knew the love of a mother, yet managed to find healing through her faith that has allowed her to be an amazing mother.  I made a friend who is called to open a pregnancy counseling center that will enable other women to embrace the definition of a mother.  I have built what will undoubtedly be lifelong relationships with women who have never experienced the joy of motherhood, yet have a mother’s heart. And tomorrow….I have the honor of being a vessel in what God is doing to help children know the love of a mother in the place where my daughter was born.  If you’re up at 3am ET, your prayers will be greatly appreciated.

a sling and a stone

originally published May 5, 2011 at http://kacinpoint.com

After touring the royal palaces this morning and meeting some new friends for coffee, Lisa and I climbed in the car with my new friend Samuil.  The rest of our team rode in a van with another new friend.  Our destination was the place that Sofija called home for the first three years of her life.  On our drive Samuil prayed and announced that he had a song for me to hear before we entered the facility.  He hit play.

I can’t tell all that happened just yet, but I can sum it up with one verse….

John 8:32 “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

I walked into a building fighting off fear.  I walked out of that building in freedom and with the knowledge that nobody will ever have to experience what we experienced to bring our daughter home.

God is faithful.

freedom

originally published May 2, 2011 at http://kacinpoint.com

Galatians 5:1 “Christ has set us free! This means we are really free. Now hold on to your freedom and don’t ever become slaves of the Law again.”

Another divine day filled with new friends, new revelations, new purpose and new freedom.

I’ve written, spoken and claimed Galatians 5:1 many times  in the past several years.  Being healed of cancer was so much more about being healed from years-old wounds and set free of the baggage I’d been carrying, than it was about a physical healing.

Today, as I claimed that my children would see themselves through the words of Ephesians 2:10

“For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God has prepared beforehand that we should walk in them”

I grasped just how big this verse is in my own life and how sad it is that I see people everywhere that I look who do not grasp it at all.

WE (you, me, he, she, they) are HIS workmanship (the art of a master workman).  We were all created for good works.  God has prepared those works beforehand so that we can simply walk them out.

As I sat and laughed about the connection to what God has prepared for the team I’m leading here and what God has led me to teach my children, I had a realization that filled me with joy that I could not contain.

I thought I knew what freedom was.  But today, I feel absolutely 100% freedom from the desire to control anything.  I NEVER want to be a slave to that desire again.

set up

originally published May 2, 2011 at http://kacinpoint.com

On May 1 2007 I had half of my thyroid removed.  Three days later I learned I had cancer.  On May 1st 2009 I had several tests in one day with my dear friend Rachelle by my side.  The last was an ultrasound that showed several very large lymph nodes in my neck that appeared to be cancerous.  On May 1st 2011 I was invited to a Roma church.  I accepted the invitation.

I had this big revelation while sitting in the Frankfurt airport yesterday for about 8 hours (it would have been 10, but my flight from London was delayed).  I have had this feeling all week of being set up.  You know that feeling you have the second after you step on a banana peel or open the door to find a very unattractive blind date?  That knowledge that someone has gone out of their way and planned to cause you harm?  It’s been the opposite of that.  Walking through the Frankfurt airport I realized that there are very few moments in life when we get to experience what it feels like to be “set up” in a positive light.  It is usually only vengeance, jealousy or some other unGodly emotion that motivate a person to form a calculated plan that will effect the life of one other person.  People just rarely put forth the effort the do something calculated and grand that will only effect one individual person.  But you know what?  God ALWAYS does.  I’ve been offered phone numbers for people in high places and when I call, they seem to have been expecting me.  Throughout my day today, I’ve been asked, “Did we meet before?”  We attended the English church service in the hotel where we are staying, had a four hour meeting with my amazing new friend Anne, and were dropped off at the Roma village by another new friend Samuil.

Along with Rachelle and the bff who was by my side to build an orphanage in Mexico when we were still in junior high, I walked down an alley and into a Roma shanty town on the outskirts of Belgrade, Serbia.  The pastor is a Roma who speaks English.  As he escorted us down the alley he told us a little about the church.  There are more than 200,000 Romas in Belgrade and more than 800,000 in Serbia.  His church is THE ONLY Roma church in Belgrade.  Around one hundred people meet in a space that’s roughly the size of your living room.  We entered that room, found a place to sit, and were informed that a space had been saved for us on the front row.  As I sat, with my knees pressed against the pulpit, the pastor looked at me and asked, “Are you going to say something?”  I replied, “Huh?” He spoke slowly (I guess American mothers aren’t the only ones who think speaking slowly might help people hear you) as he asked, “Do you want to share something?  A testimony?  A word?”  As my mind was still saying, “Huh?”, my mouth opened and the word “yes” came out.  Without realizing it, I then said, “And Rachelle will sing.”  I just love her so much that I wanted to share the moment 😉

As I tried to grasp what I had just agreed to, I realized that the only thing I had on me was a flip video and my passport.  Time to talk to God.  I kept hearing, “relate to them”.  Uh, yeah.  The Roma people have had no land of their own for well over a thousand years.  They live in extreme poverty, desolation, discrimination and isolation.  The do not even have a Bible printed in their own language.  How do you speak to people who have never had an opportunity to read the Bible?

As I argued all these points to God, I heard the words, “one flock.”  I looked over and saw that Rachelle had a Bible in her hands and I asked if I could look through it.  It fell open to Isaiah 45.  Remember the whole “set up” feeling?  Isaiah 45:1-3  says, “Thus says the LORD to my anointed one…. whose right hand I have grasped, to subdue nations before him (her) and to loose the belts of kings, to open doors before him(her) that gates may not be closed: “I will go before you and level the exalted places, I will break in pieces the doors of bronze and cut through the bars of iron, I will give you the treasures of darkness and the hoards in secret places, that you may know that it is I, the LORD, the God of Israel, who calls you by your name.”

Got it, God!  I’ve been set up.

I then turned to John 10 and read down until I found the part about Jesus knowing his own sheep and his own sheep knowing Him.  And then the part about him laying down his life for His sheep.  And then verse 16 …. “I have other sheep, too, that are not in this sheepfold. I must bring them also. They will listen to my voice, and there will be one flock with one shepherd.”

After an hour of worshiping God in a language I did not know :), and several minutes of weeping as Rachelle sang (video to be posted later), I stood and read John 10:14-16.  I told the story of my own church.  A church that began less than four years ago, in a movie theater, with half the number of people that were in that small room. A church that had more than 1100 people in attendance on Easter Sunday.  I’m not quite sure how much of that was lost in translation, but there was gasping and I heard the pastor say quietly, “We will need a bigger building.”  I said a little more, sat down and listened to an entire sermon that I could not understand.  There were verses to reference shining on the wall in front of us through an overhead projector.  Of course, the verses were in Serbian and the sermon was in a Roma dialect (that was very different from Serbian).  Rachelle and I were able to guess what some of the book references were.  As we read them we laughed.  Most were about sheep.

After the sermon, we took communion and had prayer time.  Many people came forward seeking prayer and the pastor looked at us and said that they were there for healing.  We began to pray over them and it seemed like the line just kept growing.  After praying over an older lady who had a tiny little girl by her side, it became evident that this child, who could not have been older than five, was seeking prayer.  Rachelle and I got down in front of her and as we began praying over her, I heard very clearly, “Tell them it’s May 1st!”

When prayer time was over, the pastor handed me the mic and I began to cry (Eb, I know you’re shocked.)  I told them the story of May 1 2007 and May 1st 2009 and that today, on May 1st 2011, I am cancer-free. I can’t really remember what all I said or what all of the responses were from that moment forward, but I can tell you that the presence of God had filled that room.

We are one flock.  How can it be that people who love Christ and who sacrifice all that they have just to rent a room where they can gather, do not even have a Bible translated into their native language?  How, in 2011, can an entire race not have a land to call their own?  Why is it that this small church plant is the only place in Belgrade where Roma’s are welcome to gather and worship? Before we left, we asked if we could pray.  Again I wept, as I listened to Lisa claim the promises of unity and prosperity over that church and the entire nation of Serbia.

We returned to our hotel tonight burdened, full of righteous anger, and still in awe of just how far God has gone to set us up for this journey.

Can’t wait to see what He has planned for tomorrow…..

one-year journey

originally published April 30, 2011 at http://kacinpoint.com

One year ago today I dressed my daughter of three days in her “going home” outfit, boarded a plane in Belgrade with my other four favorite family members, and began her journey home.  Today I return.   There are literally hundreds of pieces to the puzzle that created this journey that simply cannot be explained in any way except that God is “so freakin’ amazing”.  I would like to say that God will move mountains in the coming days, but that would be the wrong tense.  He already has moved the mountains.  He already wrote the script for this amazing adventure that I’m privileged to be a part of.

I had hoped to travel with the rest of our team.  It just didn’t work out that way and I ended up flying to London, all by myself (feel free to sing that line), on the day of the royal wedding.  I’m not a globe-trotter.  Oh wait.  Maybe I am.  I’m just not really a frequent-flyer.  I have, however been on a fair number of flights in my life.  In all my travels I cannot recall a pilot announcing anything that I wanted to save as a soundbite and replay frequently.  Keeping in line with everything else about this journey, just before takeoff the pilot gave a usual spiel with an unexpected finish.  In all honesty, I could not tell you if it was a “usual spiel” because I can’t really recall anything other than his last sentence….”Everyone have a VERY blessed journey.”  Just in case you want to play the soundbite yourself, he had a lovely British accent and he pronounced bless-ed with two syllables.

Flying into London was amazing. Our final approach was right along the Thames. I was sitting on the eastern side of the plane and the sun rose just as we descended low enough to clearly see the huge manor houses all along the river. BEAUTIFUL! I want to come back to England and actually leave the airport.  While flying through London was not what I had envisioned or expected, it did give me an opportunity to pick up the very last copy of the Daily Mail ~ Royal Souvenir Edition, to be found in Heathrow.  It just so happens that Daily Mail is the complimentary newspaper provided by the airline I flew.  Lucky me!

Psalm 25:4-5

Show me the right path, O Lord;
point out the road for me to follow.
Lead me by your truth and teach me,
for you are the God who saves me.
All day long I put my hope in you.

Serbia

If someone else wants to participate in the mission trip to Serbia, we still have two openings.  The catch is that you need to register TODAY.  The cost (including airfare) is under $2200.  You need a valid passport and a willing heart.  Please let me know ASAP if you’d like to join the team.

nikao

I’m somewhat of a masochist when it comes to studying the Bible.  I LOVE finding original Greek and Hebrew words and definitions and seeing how the original words change the context of scripture.

My all time favorite Greek word has to be NIKAO.  It is mentioned 24 times in the King James Version of the Bible and it means….

to conquer

to carry off the victory, come off victorious

of Christ, victorious over all His foes

of Christians, that hold fast their faith even unto death against the power of their foes, and temptations and persecutions when one is arraigned or goes to law, to win the case, maintain one’s cause

See why it’s my favorite?!

Adopting and parenting Sofija has not been the easiest journey.  But you know what?  Nobody was ever promised an easy journey.  What the journey has been is worthy.  My child has immeasurable worth.  She is a masterpiece! 

Ephesians 2:10 For SOFIJA is God’s MASTERPIECE. He has created her anew in Christ Jesus, so she can do the good things he planned for her long ago.

On April 3rd 2005, my daughter came into this world.  She was half a world away from me at the time and it took us five years to find each other.  In those five years she experienced neglect and abuse that have left her with many issues to overcome.  On April 3rd, 2010, I cried all day.  I knew that it was her birthday and I craved to celebrate it with her.  This year, on April 3rd, 2011, I cried for a brief moment.  I cried because I mourn the birthdays I’ve missed with her.  I also cried because this year, I got to hold her and love her and celebrate her life.  She is a vision of nikao.  She is a conqueror.  An over-comer.  A victor.  And…she knows it. 🙂

She spent the entire weekend announcing, “It’s Sofija’s birfday!”  Every time someone wished her a happy day, she demanded that someone sing to her.  Every time someone sang to her, she sang along.  When she snuck an extra cupcake before lunch and we asked her why she had done it, she threw up her hands and said, “Because it’s cake!”  Of course.  Why else would you sneak an extra cupcake?!

Happy 6th Birthday, Sofija!  Thank you for painting us a picture of what nikao looks like.  Philippians 1:3  I thank my God every time I think of you.

 

just ask

Matthew 21:21-22 NLT

Then Jesus told them, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith and don’t doubt, you can do things like this and much more. You can even say to this mountain, ‘May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ and it will happen. You can pray for anything, and if you have faith, you will receive it.”

Matthew 7:7 NLT

“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.”

Luke 11:9-13 NLT

“And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.“You fathers—if your children ask for a fish, do you give them a snake instead? Or if they ask for an egg, do you give them a scorpion? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him.”

Well….I asked.  And….I received.

We now have an SLP (speech-language pathologist) and an Audiologist on our team.  They are both working on the time off that the trip will require, but they both have willing hearts.  Prayers appreciated.

Isn’t God SO amazing!



big stuff

So much to tell!  Yesterday was Sofija’s 6th birthday (her first as our daughter).  Today was a day when God showed up at every turn.

There is indeed so much tell.  But….I must climb in bed and get some rest.  Lots to share.  Tomorrow.