I’ve experienced a roller coaster of emotions this week. While I was at home breathing easy over the news that I DO NOT have cancer, my precious
still-a-little-broken baby girl was busy at school taking down four staff members and giving her lead teacher a concussion. On the same day that I talked to my doctor about possible surgery dates that would give me time to heal before that baby girl’s school year ends, I faced the reality that her “school year” may be over in the terms of her actually leaving the house for a few hours a day.
And then, in the midst of the roller-coaster of emotions and seeking wisdom on baby girl’s school placement and dealing with an achy uterus, I was told some things yesterday that punched me in the gut.
“You are a narcissist and a hypocrite! You lack the ability to be truthful and you have no place doing any Christian counseling with anyone… Don’t blog or write anymore as your words are meaningless and untrue!”
It’s always interesting to me how those type of character attacks come when there is ZERO energy (or even motivation) left to defend myself. But you know what? I think there’s a reason for that. I think God wants us to have ZERO energy for defending ourselves so that we can lean into Him. So that we are forced to choose what we are going to believe. I also don’t think it’s any accident that the character attack came at the same time I am being forced to choose what I believe about daughter.
So, for the record, I choose TRUTH. I choose to only believe the things that the Word of God says about me and my child. I choose to believe that God has given me a platform with this blog and that when someone is blessed by something I write, my purpose is fulfilled and HE is glorified. I choose to give GOD credit for any good that anyone sees in me.
TRUTH: Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for Sofija and Kaci,”says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give my girls a future and a hope.” ~My baby girl is going to be just fine. No matter what her school environment looks like, it will be a good thing. No ifs. No ands. No buts.
2 Corinthians 12:10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the INSULTS, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ~ This is why I’m pretty confident God allows character attacks at times when I don’t have the time or energy to work it out on my own. “…when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Romans 8:28 For we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. ~We’re all going to be okay around here and you’re going to be okay wherever you are and whatever it is that you’re walking through. There is no guarantee that life will be easy for those who follow Christ. There is however a guarantee that EVERYTHING will work together for your good. I need to mention that sometimes “your good” doesn’t look like what you imagined it would look like. It just doesn’t. But that doesn’t make it less good. It’s just different good.
John 1:12 But to all who believed him and accepted him, he gave the right to become children of God. ~ Did you read that? “…children of God.” That’s right, y’all. Me and my girl… We’re royalty. We’re daughters of a king. There is nothing that anybody can say that will ever change that.
A couple of years ago, Prince Harry was caught on camera, sans pants, in Vegas. For the Prince, what happened in Vegas, did not stay in Vegas. Within hours the crown jewels were all over the internet and people were calling him all sorts of bad names. You know what he did? He got up the next morning, put on a suit and tie, and continued to be a Prince. As crazy as it may sound, I want to be like Harry. Okay maybe I don’t want the world to see me in my birthday suit through the lens of a cellphone camera. But I do want to get up everyday, clothe myself in a suit of armor, and remember that no matter what anyone says about me (or to me), I am a daughter of a king.
Ephesians 6:13-17 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the BELT OF TRUTH and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News (the Bible) so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.